January 2012
73 posts
I just want the best..
the best. Yeah. The best for me. Just wanna live my dream and accomplish my goals. Sigh sad to say maybe there wont be no one to help me accomplish these things. But ima fight for whats right. I have to grow up. Be strong. Move forward. 2012 please be good to me. I want it to be the fuckin’ best. Yeah. The best.
December 2011
79 posts
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE!
finna get it cracking tonight. Yee.
Better days.
I see you coming. Yall calling my name. Im feeling better tho. Way better than before. And im glad. Fuck being shitty. I rather be happy muthafucka. Yee Yee. Whats good tuumblrr.?
2012 New Year Resolutions!
Stop Weed. Be drug free and all.
Cut down on drinking. Stop smoking cigs.
Start off on a new diet. More exercising.
Find a job.
Do good in school. or better.
Bettering my environment.
Fix my car.
New friends and lose fake ones.
Be happy
Move on and never look back on it. Stop torturing myself. Accept reality.
That’s some but not all. That is all i can think of at the moment.
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Dear ex...
Sorry for bothering you last night. Sigh* i should of never called you. I was going thru some shit last night. With all these commotions i just wanted to run away. So i called you but nah. It wasn’t right iknow. I shoulda never called you. I only bothered you. I just thought you was gonna be there for me but i guess not. Im sorry for the shit i did. But no ones perfect. Also i said a lot of...
illestchiica:
i’m a fool for you
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Never lower my self esteem.
I hate myself for this. I did this last week. That shit haunts me. I won’t do it again. I was doing so fucking well, but then i made this mistake. The stupidest mistake someone can ever make. Not again i will lower my self esteem to your level. Cause if i do. I’m torturing myself slowly. I never wanna feel like shit again. I hate it.
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Be happy.
That’s the only thing that crosses my mind. All i want is to be happy. I haven’t felt that feeling for awhile. I just wanna live stress free and be happy but it will never be that way. I knoe there will be more sad moments then the happy moments but as long as you were happy for a moment right? Yess. Lately i’ve been thinking a lot. People tell me. Why am i so sad about? I tell...
I used to treat people well, but now I just treat...
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We all go thru it.
I know its hard but somehow I gotta get thru this. This pain and sorrow. Yeah it hurts now but it’ll make me stronger. It will better me and myself to become a better person. Sometimes i just have to learn the hard way. But always learn from it and grow from it. Iknow its hard now but im just wishing for it to get better. It kinda is. And i dont really wanna start off 2012 with a bad...
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I hate it...
I’m thinking about you again. I hate myself for this. I’m so sad. I needa snap out of it. I can’t torture myself anymore. It hurts even just to hear your name. I’m sorry. I hate thinking about you because I know me and you will never be there anymore. The love and everything gone. I’m so in need of a drink and smoke. Can’t do it. Sigh* (Tear.)
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i get it...
Im walking away. Love still there. but the best is to walk away. Tears are shed and words are said. Im sorry for all the shit that i did. but damn seems to me like i did all this. but it aint. i didnt even get a sorry from you. My heart hurts right now. Nobody is here to talk to me. Im alone. Letting it all settle in on me. Sigh. the pain will never go away it seems like. Its pretty hard to lose...
fuck what you think...
i dont deserve this shit. Ugh. fml.
Why can't we be civil with each other.?
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If I cry over you, I actually give a fuck about...
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I will never thought I will come to this ...
But I just fucken cut myself. Yeah it hurts but now you know how I feel. If you did it I will too.
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I was a bad bf..
Yeah iknoe I was too. I realized all my mistakes. Iknoe what I did wrong. But also I did some rights too. But I let anger take control of me. I was insecure. And I’m sorry I wasn’t everything you wanted. At least I tried right? Yeah. But if I had that chance to redo all my mistakes I would. I wouldn’t follow those same foot steps I did before. I would be a better bf. Cause...
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Even if roads are bumpy...
I have to maintain and do what’s best for me. Try to keep my head up and better myself and follow my heart. Giving up shouldn’t be an option. I need to maintain my path and do me. Even if all hopes are lost I just need to over power it. Just repeat those words. She’s worth it.
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Mary Jane.
Ima miss you but i gotta do the right thing. I’ll be back pretty soon.
I wanna be happy again..
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Blankk...
Yeah that’s me. I don even know who I am anymore. Since that day I haven’t been myself. Guess its right the people you love do make the biggest impact on your life. I don’t feel myself anymore. I need to find myself. I gotta know what I want. I hope I find myself soon.
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Explanation..
Who gets those now? Nobody. It’s just they make their decision and they ignore you. Act as if nothing happen between you two. They forget about you. All we want is an explanation.
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The people.
who make the biggest impact on my life are the ones i love. I love it when im around the people i love because i know they got love for me too. It wouldnt get any more perfect. I cant forget the boys. They always here for me and i got much love for them. And theres a few extra people out there. Those are my mains. The close ones. Like my boy goofy. Yea that nigga stay true to me since day one....
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I want to talk to you
shirleychen:
Trust me, I get really tempted to. But you seem so happy without me and I don’t want to ruin it for you.
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Tattoo.
always wanted one. I actually want alot. A sleeve maybe on my left arm. I always thought about it. I should get it. I also always wanted to get like lips on my neck you know. Like that girl that ima be spending my life with. Draw out exactly how her lips are and tattoo it on my neck. I think its dope.
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We all wanted something..
obviously everyone does. Ugh. We all want that special person. Who just fits right in. Where nothing can go wrong. You and that person are just like a magnet. Stuck to each other. They are everything you will ever need. That one person who can keep you happy and on your toes. One whos down for you. These are all the things we want. Someone to love and for them to love them back and they make the...
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You first before me...
yeah i always tried to be that way. I always try to put people before me. Let them know that i got love for them. I rather have someone else be happy then myself. I dont knoe why but thats how i always was. Its said because i love other people more than i love myself. But im glad. I rather help out other people because i think thats how its suppose to be. I just have a big heart. I got love for...
I suffer in silence. I don't cry in front of...
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I remember it like it was yesterday...
Maybe you don’t remember but i sure do. The day we first met and everything. These are the flashbacks that kills me. I still remember the first day i met you. Its was freshmen orientation. you came up and asked me if i knew Steven and which he was my friend at the moment. From that day on we became close. I had you for two of my classes during freshmen year. I remember you would always use...
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Truth hurts...
Yeah sure does. I hate my fucken life right now. Aint shit going my way. Feels good to know and good to not know. We all had to find out the truth anyways. Thats the only way to know to move on or not. Im at the stage where i say i just wanna give up. Your signs are killing me because their isnt no signs. why do i care and love for you so much? i hate this shit. Im so clueless.
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livefreeandbelieve:
And I do miss you, I just...
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Thinking about you...
Yeah. I’ve been. I wonder if you think about me. ? It sucks. Knowing that you may have moved on and found something better. But I dont have a say. Your life so live it. As for me you should already know where’s my heart at. I’m follow it. I may get hurt and shut down but all I gotta do is wait and take it slow. I have to be strongest at my weak points. Show everybody wat I...
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It just hurts..
when you know everything. I just dont know what to say anymore. I hate it. But its cool. You know. I rather keep my distance for now. What i gotta say is something that prolly will never let known. Everybody may know some things but they dont know what i really feel. Staying strong for now is all i need. Plus gotta keep the real ones close and the fakes. Fuck em. I dont know what i have been...